Hmmmmmmmmmmm

Apparently I've qualified for the Area Festivals.

There is one in Sept at Kingswood so not a million miles away (in fact, one of the closest of my "local" venues) but it's a bit of a jinxed place for me.

Have spoken to instructor who just laughed (ie agrees with me) that I must be one of the least "aware" BD members out there. I have no idea what I'm doing with this affiliated lark. Anyway, apparently it's a backway of getting to the Nationals.

I am realistic, I have no way of getting to the Nationals. I know that. It's not even figuring on my "possibilites" but instructor is saying I shouldn't dismiss it out of hand, it's a great opportunity to compete at a big show against very nice horses.

That sounds great if I knew I'd not let the pony down. It'd be fab to go and hold my own but I also know if I come bottom of the class (I don't want to win, just not come bottom) then it'd knock my confidence back loads.

Not confidence riding wise but confidence in my riding ability if that makes sense?

I know if instructor was on him, he'd go out there and give a hell of a lot of horses a run for their money. I also suspect she's itching to get out there and compete him but I can't really afford to pay her to do so, not when I suspect all it would do is make me feel crap ....... and in turn earn me a telling off from her LOL