Rainy but happy

Am just very very happy at the moment. Lots of reasons - OH and moving in together (although that's scary!), my job is wonderful, my heart bursts when I look at T-Jay, Squirt is doing us very proud and most importantly, for me, the yard is such a stress RELIEVER generally speaking rather than a stress causer.

This time last year there were lots and lots of problems at the yard - the horses were ill which is what has prompted all these "thoughts" but we also had lots of friction between people, lots of stirring, we had to try and do a lot of firefighting between the different people on the yard, etc. So much so that it was about now that I started to think about giving up. Instructor bollocked me and I pulled my socks up a bit but last Sept/Oct time is when I really really did come very close to selling up and giving up, that lasted until about January time really.

It's not until things change for the better that you realise just how bad things were, is it?

We're not perfect, far from it, but we're on the right tracks. I still have moments where I'm torn as to whether I need a break but at least this year, I can see that I DO love "horses" and my lifestyle and I DO get more enjoyment from it than stress, unlike last year.

Am very pleased with Squirt - so many cobs are bolshy and bad mannered but he has been a gentleman lately. This morning he was desperate to get out to the field, no doubt bashing the door but friend turned him out and said he was a little star. Didn't barge his stable, walked politely to the field, let her turn him round, shut gate then take headcollar off before he trotted off. He's really quite sweet if you ignore the occasional grumpy face :)

T-Jay is stuffed. Totally. He's in his stable deflating a bit. Lots of cow pat poo in there (eeew). I wanted to ride but it was horrid drizzly rain and we're brewing for a storm so left him deflate in his stable and J is going to turn him out for me. Squirt's in for the night but doesn't seem to mind, lol, think he's just grateful he's allowed on the grass at all!

Need to ride tomorrow. Don't really know why I'm so anti the school at the moment, think it's because I've had a break and need a kick up the arse to ride properly rather than just hack. Lesson on Thurs so that should kick me up the bum.

Got to work miles away tomorrow, will be a nice change. Got big important meeting that was dumped on me but have lots to say so I think I'll not let the Unit down :)